December

After an incredibly successful No Man November (well done me) I am glad to welcome in December with open arms.  First off this year has gone by so quickly! Feels like just yesterday I was buying myself a fresh 2013 diary and now we’re about to hit 2016.  Lord have mercy.

December is for sure my favourite month (other than February, my birthday month) for so many reasons.  Firstly, the unbeatable Oxford Street lights.  Nothing makes me feel more Christmassy than walking (squeezing my way through the masses) down Oxford Street with all the beautiful lights and general good vibes. Also lets talk about the annual competition people have with the lights on their houses.  As soon as December 1st strikes some people waste no time in decking every inch of their houses with garish lights.  Next, two of my favourite words.  Mulled.  Wine.  Does two great things for the soul, keeps you merry/boozy and warm. What more could you want?! By far the best thing ever about Christmas is seeing family and friends.  After what seemed to be an eternity of cold weather, catching up with the squad and seeing the family most amazing treat.

Listen pals, on a sly side note, to those who were equally as successful with their No Man Novembers think about all that money you can now spend on booze instead of buying your significant other a present.  Every cloud…

Anyway, Happy December Folks,

Love Lollie xox

Grieving my Grandma

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Its been two months since I lost my beloved grandmother and nothing much has changed.  Although the initial shock has faded somewhat, all the other emotions are still there.  Lemony Snicket said “it is useless for me to describe to you how terrible Violet, Klaus, and even Sunny felt in the time that followed. If you have ever lost someone very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven’t, you cannot possibly imagine it.”

Sometimes I almost feel selfish to miss her so much, as I know she’s now free from all pain. But that doesn’t stop me missing her.

Maybe in a years time it will finally hit me that I’ll never hear that sweet voice again.  But for now, every time the phone rings I expect to hear her voice.  Or when I speak to my grandfather I wait for him to pass her the phone.

Although the grief is still with me it definitely gets easier with each passing day.  When I first found out about her passing I acted out of character.  Grief is a funny thing.  I became overly sensitive,  I needed my family and friends, but at the same time needed no one at all.  But now I feel more settled and being gentle with myself has definitely eased the bereavement process.

If others too are feeling lost in their grief, please, take comfort in the cliche that time will heal.  (Cue eye roll) As annoying as that may sound now, its the best advice I can give.

Love,

Lollie xx

Song of the week

As a huge supporter of the London music scene of course I have to give massive props to WSTRN the West London based R’n’B/Rap group. This songs fuses old school reggae and R’n’B vibes with current rap vibes. Such a feel good tune!

He’s Just Not That Into You

“Don’t spend your time on and give your heart to any guy who makes you wonder about anything related to his feelings for you”… Could this be any more true? But, hey girls, we’re all guilty of it, especially me.  I went through this situation recently but watching my best friend go through it is breaking my heart all over again.

So here goes nada, this is my open letter to my best pal.

First of all “A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves” I know, I know, it may not be that deep BUT the rule still applies.  You are far too much off a boss ass b*tch to be waiting around for this kid.  Please don’t wait around thinking that by some miracle he’ll be the exception to the rule because he most likely won’t be.  That sounds so annoying but “When it comes to men, deal with them as they are, not how you’d like them to be.”  Or “boys” because despite his age he still behaves like a petulant little boy.  You are SO MUCH BETTER than that ish.  Blair Waldorf wouldn’t put up with this shit and neither should you.  In times of trouble I often think “what would Blair Walforf do?” and she most certainly would not wait around for any boy who did not have Chuck Bass-esque credentials. Which I’m sorry to say, this boy lacks. Entirely.  Like there is no hope.

Anyway enough rambling.  Please know what you want and don’t settle for any less and always remember “..he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he’s just not that into you.”

Love, Lollie xox images-1images